Retrospection...

Anger beyond control
Frustration beyond reason
Bitterness in the heart..
That no words can treat.

Pain such that it tears me apart
Along with it an ego hurt so bad
Feels like I've lost myself
To a person who does not deserve that.

Why the cocky,nasty behavior now?
Why after so long?
Did I hope for things to get better?
Or did i understand wrong?

This is not me..
This is not what I used to be..
Why do I let things affect me so much..
That I lose myself in me??

I hope to get back to being myself
The time it'll take in unknown to me
The sooner... the better
'cause I need my sanity.