Monday, February 25, 2008

Thanking my friends .....

Sometimes in life.. you know the answers to your problems.. you keep staring at them... but you refuse to accept them because it pains you to know what you'll stand to loose.Its like standing on a wall.. you're not either side.Hanging in between trying to choose between the 2 sides.. the longer you take to choose.. the harder its going to be make the deciding jump.When life gives you more than one choice... make the one choice which will give you peace of mind.It may seem hard initially but in the long run its the best you'd have made. And sometimes you need your friends to help you make that decision... Maybe they seem harsh telling you the reality but they mean good. They wanna see you happy and content and so its good to listen to them. I love my friends because they're the ones who've helped me out when I've been confused and stuck.They've been harsh with me but they were right. And I'm so glad they yelled at me when they did. Like someone once said "Friends are the family you choose".They make my life more beautiful :-).

Friday, February 15, 2008

Questions . . .

So many questions in life,...about life and so few answers.Fewer are the ones I understand.What is life? Who am I? Why am I here? What is the purpose of life? Does life mean being able to breathe? Or that I get along with people and live in a community and feel lke I belong? That again makes me ask.. "Why should I belong?? Why should I get along??"

Why are people considered a social outcast just because they do things differently? Why is being different not accepted as gracefully as everything else in nautre?

What is freedom? What is slavery?
If slavery means being forced to do something we do not like,aren't we all slaves of the "community"?? Try thinking something out of the box and voicing it out.. if it isn't something conventional,I guarantee you that it will be snubbed. Freedom of thought, freedom of speech is what our constitution says to be the right of every Indian. Why then are we snubbed?

We are taught as kids that we must speak the truth at all costs. Why then are we expected to sugar coat what we think? Or asked to twist the truth to our advantage? It is said that "The truth shall set you free". But once you speak the truth, you make enemies because the truth is usually bitter. Making enemies in authoritative posts is just calling for trouble.Why would anyone want to get into trouble??

WHY?? WHY?? WHY??
Why so many questions??

I would generally not agree with ignorance being bliss because ignorance is like being blind, but as I see that I am unable to find answers to my questions, I choose to be ignorant.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Retrospection...

Anger beyond control
Frustration beyond reason
Bitterness in the heart..
That no words can treat.

Pain such that it tears me apart
Along with it an ego hurt so bad
Feels like I've lost myself
To a person who does not deserve that.

Why the cocky,nasty behavior now?
Why after so long?
Did I hope for things to get better?
Or did i understand wrong?

This is not me..
This is not what I used to be..
Why do I let things affect me so much..
That I lose myself in me??

I hope to get back to being myself
The time it'll take in unknown to me
The sooner... the better
'cause I need my sanity.

My life..... As of now...

I love my life..
Its given me all that i want..
Better than what I could hope for..
A life with everything so nice..
It makes my life so meaningful

My life has taught me a lot..
To love is better than to be loved..
To be able to give is more treasured than to receive..
To be able to hope for a better tomorrow is something that most could only hope for..
To be able to see a silver lining in every dark cloud is a blessing in disguise..

Why then do I crib when I've been blessed with so much??
When I should actually be thanking people who've made this possible??

There have been times when I've been down.. when I've been low,
but without these moments of agony..what is getting high,would I really know??

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Letting go . . .

The power of letting go
Is it really that powerful or is it just an eyewash?
Does letting go really help or is it just a compromise?
I know not the answers to all of these
What I do know is my need for peace.

Peace is just a state of mind
Absolute and whole...easy to find
Then why go looking for it outside?
When all I have to do is look within I...

Happiness again is such a relative term
What brings you happiness may not bring me joy
Happiness again is easy to find...
In the birds,the bees and also the sky.

A glowing warmth fills my heart
Fills me with hope for a new start
A day so happy,a day so bright
A day so might.. it turns darkness to light.